True Change

The desire for change almost entirely originates from the thinking mind and the ego.

It is a belief in a few thoughts. I know what's best. I have control. I am insufficient/things are not okay now.

Willpower is leveraged. To do lists are made. Apps are downloaded. Conferences are organised. All of which bolsters the sense of "I" and doing, and puts you in the driver's seat.

Can I really know what's best for me, others, and the world? It is a question worth giving more than just casual consideration. In fact, sit with it for a minute or so.

The truth is, we cannot know with certainty what is best. It could just as easily be the case that what's best for you, others, and the world is what's happening now—difficulties and imperfections included. 

If anything, this is a kinder philosophy. Kinder in the sense that we feel no need to "move forward" from our current position and start using people and resources to implement our understanding of the way things should be. We remain equal, or the same.

The desire for change is really a desire to heal. It is an indication of inner rifts that speak much more about our personal history than anything else.

If we can fully feel our desire to heal, little else is required. The acknowledgement alone begins a process of what will look like change and transformation on the outside. But if all you're doing is removing the dirt from your eye to see more clearly — which is what healing is — does anything really change in the end? Maybe a little.

What is removed is the forcing, the willpower, the pushing, and a great deal of frustration from the inevitable seeking and not finding or the seeking and finding, but realising what you found isn't exactly what you wanted.

Observe how flowers, in particular, "change." From seed, to sprouting roots, to seedling, to plant, to beautiful flower and then back to seed. It's an effortless and elegant process. No conscious thinking is involved. No willpower. But there is deep intelligence at work.

A Mark of Mastery

Equanimity is one of the clearest marks of mastery in any discipline.

Equanimity means I am always the same. It means we have grown, through wisdom, immune to the constant seasons of change and constant up-down and in between swings.

Good experience flows through us, bad experience flows through us. There is no particular preference for either. We understand both are essentially the same—you can find traces of the bad in the good and the good in the bad.

Similarly, we realise what we have to share is neither good nor bad. Your negativity could be another's source of inspiration, and your inspiration could be another's source of negativity.

Worry ends. Trying ends. 

Trying means we are preferring one outcome over the other, which means we are believing in the truth of "superior" and "inferior."

You can't have superior without inferior and vice versa. Both are inherently valuable and inextricably married to one another, as is every other dichotomy in duality.

We learn to love both equally. And so we profoundly relax. Our wills no longer need to work so hard to make it.

With our wills relaxed, tolerance increases, as does compassion. And from here, we create wonders.

Making It

Great fortune can extinguish the fire of discontent. We seek great fortune to do just that. Success. Fame. Notoriety.

Proudly planting our flag at the top of the mountain, we declare, "I've made it. From here, everything will be OK."

While the journey you took was commendable and many obstacles, requiring skill, were overcome, we want to be careful of the sense of security that results from outside accomplishment, or "making it."

Our pursuit of success was driven by feeling insecure and a desire to remove the feeling.

But, nobody can escape death. Nobody can escape the fact that all our achievements will be for naught in the end, where once again the inherent insecurity of living in a world defined by the birth-life-death cycle is revealed.

If we yearn for truth, freedom, and transcending this frustrating cycle, we have our work cut out for us. While wins along the way should be acknowledged and celebrated, the skilled practitioner understands everything can be taken away in an instant. She remains humble and unaffected.

She holds on to the fire of discontent burning inside that beckons and calls to keep going until the final goal is reached and only peace remains. Step by step by step, in faith.