Start Being That

To get there requires going 100% of the way.

There means mastery or the fully developed you that is no longer dependent upon approval and validation from the outside.

We all want to get there, that much is certain.

What is not certain is if we'll go all the way

Any way you look at it, it is a hard journey. The first few feet are heard, the middle parts are hard, but if the difficulty of this journey of enlightenment could be measured, we'd find that the final 10% is the most difficult and perilous.

Many of us will reach that point and stop. We've come a long way, we feel relatively good, and have acquired great skill. We see now that the final 10% of the way asks us to do something brand new and unfamiliar.

Go it alone.

At this point, you are beyond help. Nobody can advise you. Nobody is going to be there if you fall.

You have to learn to be your own master and your own friend, and you have to leave all the tools and resources you used to reach this point, behind. It is a total stripping down.

Initially, this is scary. But you think back to your original commitment you made to the journey in the first place and you understand how necessary and how beautiful this part is.

Wouldn't it be something to know in the deepest chamber of your heart, you need nothing?

That you are the master you've been waiting for? And that now the only thing required is for you to start being that?

Everything is found in the last mile. Everything before was preparation only.

Beyond Personality

Successful personalities get paid a lot of money.

We tend to admire and glorify those with the most engaging personalities.

And from these examples, we adopt our own to try and get what we want—love, respect, fame and even their opposites.

The personality is what masks and protects your self from being seen, and from being punished or rewarded.

The self is the "you" beyond personality. The you that doesn't act. The you that just is. The you that needs nothing.

You could describe the self as utterly unremarkable and, also, utterly remarkable at the same time—like a cloud.

The self is where our authentic thoughts and feelings arise from. Thoughts and feelings that may come into conflict with socially-agreed upon norms, or cultural and familial expectations. So we bury the self and adopt personalities.

For those walk the path of truth, a significant portion of the journey is spent undoing the personality, which means learning to identify between the you that looks for approval and validation and the you that just is.

Through this process, we steady. We move from being externally-oriented to internally-oriented. When we are externally-oriented, we become like ping pong balls, bouncing this way and that, utterly controlled by the whims circumstance. Sometimes up, sometimes down. Sometimes here, sometimes there.

This life becomes crazy-making in the end, fun thought it is.

When we are internally-oriented, we self define. We do not go outside looking for the answer. We move because we are moved not because we feel we need to (or else).

Theatrics lessens, drama lessens, and harmony increases.

To move beyond personality requires great personal sacrifice. We have to give up wanting. We have to give up lust. We have to give up greed. We learn to say, "I have enough because I am enough."

Yes, the personality will help you get what you think you want or what others say you should want but at what price to your self?

For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul? 
— 
Mark 8:36

It begins to hurt, leading with your personality. Something feels missing and as yet unfulfilled. All the riches you acquire begin to taste bitter.

Renunciation is now desired. Renouncing from the world does not necessarily mean shaving your head, donning robes, and begging for alms. No. Renunciation, above all, is an internal disposition.

It is a choice we make to give up false pretences. To give up seeking approval. To give up seeking validation. And while this may entail some outward changes to appearance, more than anything, the choice charts us on a new course toward a new destination.

We are looking for ourselves. Not who we think we should be but who we really are.

Breakthroughs

Start thinking, if you don't already, of the word "holy" in the sense of being whole, versus being elevated or enlightened.

We are here to work. Not just to pay the rent but to expand our awareness, refine our characters, and for some, totally transcend the personal sense of self that lives life from "I, me, and mine."

By in large, this work is defined by the journey of healing. Healing means to make whole, which means to build bridges between unnaturally separated parts—physically, psychologically, emotionally, and even spiritually.

As separated parts rejoin, bonds strengthen. As bonds strengthen, entirely new thoughts and feelings take over that help us to take the next step, and the next and the next.

We are putting pieces together, just like a puzzle. It is a time-consuming process filled with a fair amount of frustration and difficulty. Every so often, though, something "clicks." You have a breakthrough.

With that breakthrough, joy flows, and with it, motivation to keep going. So on you go.

Keep with this long enough and, slowly, a beautiful tapestry starts to come into focus. Everything starts to make sense. You are moving from lost to found. Be glad. 

All of us are, for the most part, fumbling around in the dark. Our intuition guides us. We take action in good faith. We succeed. We fail. We take right turns. We take wrong turns.

As with anything, what's important is to keep at the puzzle through all the ups, downs, twists, and turns, and especially in the darkest hours of the night.

Your commitment will steady you and the breakthroughs will come.