It is the rare exception for somebody to be free of desperation.
Free of any anxiety. Full knowing that all is well and will be well. Truly, with love, not needing anything or anybody.
The test is how we react when the rug gets pulled out from under us. Job loss. Relationship breakup. Accident. Or, how we effort to get our needs met, and how we might compromise our integrity and sense of values to do so.
Desperation can be easily disguised as happiness. Don't let outward displays of security fool you. The very reason somebody pursues happiness is an act of desperation. And you can achieve it. Steady job. House. Family. Retirement plan.
Desperation can easily be disguised as happiness.
We don't know who we'll be if we were stripped naked, exposed, vulnerable, seen (especially with our own two eyes) for who we really are. So, we get fearfully dressed up and go off pursuing external and material goals. One after the next after the next, like being on a highly active but go nowhere treadmill.
You don't want to get too comfortable here but rather be driven by an unending fire of discontent. There is only one goal, and just absorb the words if the concept makes no sense: full merging with the Absolute. This requires active and proactive destruction and canceling out of the false self, the self that pushes you out into the world, that goes along to get along, that is thoroughly unaware of the desperation and panic, born of separation, within.
What do you think the squeeze of this time is all about now? It's meant to drive you crazy because there is unacknowledged craziness within. Is it really a time to be thinking and planning for the future with a smile? Joking around with friends? There's no guarantee there will be a future. Our status quo is being terrifically disrupted but it's hard to look at that. Much easier, in a way, to continue to plod along and say, "What are you going to do?" after we hear of the latest report of climate-change induced destructive weather, record draughts, and crop shortages.
It is depressing to look at our desperation, our pettiness, and our inauthenticity. Depressing because our in charge ego likes to feel as if it is in control and knows it all.
If this time is driving you crazy, good. If you are feeling out of sorts, good. If you are uneasy, good.
Use these blessings as methods of inquiry to uncover the Truth within. We have brought the world to the edge of ruin because we have been afraid to look. Desperately afraid to see ourselves as we really are.
Grace will be given to those that do.