Melt and merge

The ego's greatest fear is coming face-to-face with the experience and subsequent knowing that we are totally and without any doubt, not in control of our lives.

We can conceptually begin to understand not being in control by observing such things as...

Breathing oxygen. Is that your choice? Whose choice, if it wasn't yours, was it?

Having to eat daily. Your choice?

Sleeping.

We see some evidence in more subtle areas, where it can start to get a little scary.

Consider that book you just picked up. You opened a page randomly and landed on a paragraph that spoke to you in the deepest and most profound way, giving you highly relevant information for something happening in your life right now.

Or did that book pick you? Did something with power over you want you to read that book?

Consider a grand moment where you realize all of a sudden the interconnectivity of a number of previous, seemingly unrelated events (e.g., a YouTube clip, an article, a song on the radio, snippets of dialogue here and there, etc.) that all led you, inexplicably, to the moment you're having now.

It makes you realize there is something out there that knows you intimately.

That you're being watched (or looked after if you prefer).

That you're being led.

That you're not in control.

These kinds of realizations can make us gasp, which then stops the flow.

We become separate again.

We retreat, like a turtle, into our personalities and go into our heads rationalizing, analyzing, and chit chattering about the experience.

Instead of melting and merging into it.

It's this melting, this merging the ego fears.

It will not survive it.

You will.

But it won't.